All Songs & Lyrics

All Songs & Lyrics
 
  • A complete list of songs Laura Marling has written in her career (early demos NOT included).
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# Song Name Release Info Date
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096
Soothing
Oh my hopeless wanderer
You can't come in
You don't live here anymore

Oh some creepy conjurer
Who touched the rim
Whose hands are in the door

I need soothing
My lips aren't moving
My god is brooding

Drawn in chalk across the floor
You made it yours
Your private door to my room

May those who find you find remorse
A change of course
A strange discord resolved

I need soothing
My lips aren't moving
My god is brooding

I banish you with love
I banish you with love

You can't come in
You don't live here anymore
 

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Album - Semper Femina 2017/03    > 
095
The Valley
I know she stayed in town last night
Didn't get in touch
I know she has my number right
She can't face seeing us

She sings in the valley in the morning
Many a morning I have woke
Longing to ask her what she's mourning
Of course, I know it can't be spoke

Perhaps she's had too much of love
Can be a sickly thing
That's why she mourns the morning dew
And the newness that it brings

She sings in the valley in the morning
Many a morning I have woke
Longing to ask her what she's mourning
Of course, I know it can't be spoke

I love you in the morning
I love you in the day
I'd love you in the evening
If only she would stay

We love beauty 'cause it needs us to
It needs our brittle glaze
And innocence reminds us to
Cover our drooling gaze

She's down there in the valley
I know she wanders there
She's down there in the valley
I can see her golden hair

I love you in the morning
My angel of the west
I love you in the evening
And I will do my very best

I'll do my very best
 

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Album - Semper Femina 2017/03    > 
094
Wild Fire
Chasing down a wild fire
Are you trying to make a cold liar out of me?
You want to get high?
You overcome those desires before you come to me.

I think your mama’s kinda sad
And your papa’s kinda mean.
I can take that all away
You can stop playing it out on me.
Me, me.

She keeps a pen behind her ear
in case she’s got something
She really, really needs to say.
She puts it in a notepad,
She’s gonna write a book someday.

Of course the only part that I want to read
Is about her time spent with me.
Wouldn’t you die to know how you're seen?
Are you getting away with who you're trying to be?
Trying, trying to be?

Of course there’s things upon the earth
That we must really try to defend.
A lonely beast, a kind heart,
Something weak and on trend.

I'd do it all for her for free
I need nothing back for me.
There no sweeter deed may be
Than to love something enough
To wanna help it get free.
Free, free.

Is there something on her mind.
Something she needs to get by?
Do you cry sometimes?
Do you cry sometimes?

You always say you love me most
When I don't know I’m being seen.
Well maybe some day when god takes me away
I’ll understand what the fuck that means.

I just know your mama’s kinda sad
And your papa’s kinda mean.
I could take it all away
You can stop playing that shit out on me.
Me, me.

Is there something on your mind.
Something you need to get by?
Do you cry sometimes?
Do you cry sometimes?

I know your mama’s kinda sad
I know your papa’s kinda mean.
I would take it all away
You can stop playing that shit out on me.
Me, me.
 

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Album - Semper Femina 2017/03    > 
093
Don't Pass Me By
You see my oldest friend
Tell her that I'm gone again

You take my old guitar
The one that I once said was ours
Don't be blue

You hum that old tune
The one I used to sing for you
When we're alone

You ask her if she knew
Was this something I would do
From the start?

Please don't pass me by
If I'm walking, well I don't know why
It's something that I have to try
Can you love me if I put up a fight?

Take my old guitar
And sell it off for parts
As you should

Take my old tune
Turn it into something new
Something good

Please don't pass me by
If I'm walking, well I don't know why
I can't get you off my mind
Can you love me if I put up a fight?

Is it something you make a habit of?
That's not what I need from love
Right now.
 

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Album - Semper Femina 2017/03    > 
092
Always This Way
I'd like to say that I could've stayed
But she didn't want me to
I'd like to know if she had to go
Or if she made a point to

It's so hard to say
Is it always this way?
Must every heart break
Like a wave on the bay?

I'd like to think that we're all a link
In what makes the world go 'round
Lately I wonder if all my pondering
Is taking up too much ground

I make my own way
So at the end of the day
At least I can say
That my debts have been paid

Twenty-five years and nothing to show for it
Nothing of any weight
Twenty-five more, will I never learn from it?
Never learn from my mistakes?

It's too soon to say
Was I always this way?
Well at the end of the day
My debts have been paid

Now she's gone and I'm all alone
And she will not be replaced
Stare at the phone try to carry on
But I have made my mistake

At the end of the day
At least I can say
I made my own way
And my debts have been paid
 

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Album - Semper Femina 2017/03    > 
091
Wild Once
They put my hands in water
Told me I'm a god
I might be someone's daughter
I might be somewhat odd

But I was wild once
And I can't forget it
I was wild
Chasing stones

The martyr who feels the fire
And the child who knows his name
They remember that they're something wild
And it's something you can't explain
It's something you can't explain

They are wild and
They can't forget it
They are wild
Chasing stones

It's hard if you can't change it
It's worse if you don't try
You will sit down to explain it
And you're constantly asking why
You are constantly asking why

Well, you are wild and
You must remember
You are wild
Chasing stones

Does no one understand you?
Is that tired and familiar, long?
You must change what hands you
Give me something to go on
Give me something to go on

You are wild and
I won't forget it
You are wild
Chasing stones

There is something just beneath
There is something just beneath
Something shy and hard to see
It's serene, it is clean
It's serene
 

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Album - Semper Femina 2017/03    > 
090
Next Time
It feels like
A long time
Since I was free

It feels like
The right time
To take that seriously

It feels like
The trees are
A peculiar green

It feels like
The air is
Hung heavily

I don't want to be the kind
Struck by fear to run and hide
I'll do better
Next time

It feels like
Warning signs
Were there for us to see

It feels like
They taught us
Ignore diligently

I feel her
I hear her
Weakly scream

Am I really so unkind
To turn around and close my eyes?
I'll do better next time
I'll do better next time

It feels like
The last breath
We will ever share

It feels like
The last time
I'll run my fingers through your hair

I can no longer close my eyes
While the world around me dies
At the hands
Of folks
Like me

It seems
They fail
To see

There may never
Next time be
 

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Album - Semper Femina 2017/03
089
Nouel
She sings along
To a sailor's song
In a dress that she made
When she's gone
I sing along
But it doesn't sound the same

Oh Nouel, you sing so well
Sing only for me
Fickle and changeable
Though I may always be

I pulled a thorn
From her tiny paw
Her feet were unclean
Fetch water
Bless it twice
And hand the sponge to me

I'd do well to serve Nouel
Whatever service I may be
Fickle and changeable
Weighing down on me

She speaks a word
And it gently turns
To perfect metaphor
She likes to say
I only play
When I know what I'm playing for

Oh Nouel
You know me well
And I didn't even show you the scar
Fickle and changeable
Semper femina

She'd like to be
The kind of free
Woman still can't be alone
How I wish I could
Hit the switch
That keeps you from getting gone

Oh Nouel
It hurts like hell
When you're so afraid to die
Semper femina
So am I

She lays herself
Across the bed
The Origin Du Monde
Slight of shoulder
Long in leg
And her hair a faded blonde

Oh Nouel
You sit so well
A thousand artists' muse

But you'll be anything you choose
Fickle and changeable are you
And long may that continue

I'd do well to serve Nouel
My only guiding star
Semper femina
 

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Album - Semper Femina 2017/03    > 
088
Nothing, Not Nearly
I won’t forget that late September
Where we basked among the midnight embers
But it’s going like a half-remembered dream
Left and north of where we met
Thinking better of going west
Yeah we lost each other in a river stream

I thought I’d come and find you there
Wait until you lost your hair
And got your place out in the woods
You’re not afraid of trees or bears
Or anything with tendencies
To wanna hurt you good

The only thing I learned in a year
Where I didn’t smile once, not really,
Is nothing matters more than love
No nothing, no not nothing, no not nearly

We’ve not got long, you know
To bask in the afterglow
Once it’s gone, it’s gone

I won’t forget that late September
Where we basked among the midnight embers
But it’s going like a half-remembered dream
Left and north of where we met
Thinking better of going west
Yes we've lost each other in a river stream

The only thing I learned in a year
Where I didn’t smile once, not really,
Is nothing matters more than love
No nothing, no not nothing, no not nearly

We’ve not got long, you know
To bask in the afterglow
Once it’s gone, it’s gone
Love waits for no one

We’ve not got long you know
Bask in the afterglow
Once it’s gone, it’s gone
Love waits for no one
 

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Album - Semper Femina 2017/03    > 
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087
Mary Stuart Song*
I lived my life in fits and spurts
Maybe I've had more than I deserve
I'm sure I cannot feel much worse
I kept your letter
I read your words

I'm trying to share the map with you
But you know your way
You have your route
I'm trying to give you loving truth
But you're acid-tongued and serpent-toothed
I found God ____

Left my heart with a man in those eastern woods
He sold people shy but his words are good
And I hope that he won't fade away
I'll write him tomorrow
I wrote that yesterday

Home, this is not your home anymore
You just threw your pieces
They washed up on our shore
I cannot live any other way
It is my right to wonder
I might choose to stay
I found God in the strangest place

And I saw the sign for that old highway
You did cross my mind
But it didn't change
I hope we meet again someday
I hope we meet again
I hope you never change

I hope we meet again
I hope you never change
 

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Unreleased 2016/12    > 
086
Drought is Over*
Walking down my street
Transcended by my footsteps
Entranced by my feet
I'm afraid that you're not coming
I'm afraid that I'm too hard
I'm afraid that if I love you
And I'm protective of my heart

I love you, winter morning
I love you, summer rain
I've been afraid that you're not coming
The sun always came again

Drought is over
The rains came
This loneliness is over
And I can love again

Thought I could see the future
I was writing it right now
But older and wiser
I see I do not have that power

I love you, passing stranger
And we may never pass again
For that moment that you're near me
I will love you like a friend

Drought is over
The rains came
Loneliness is over
You can love again
You can love again

You can love again
You will love again
 

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Unreleased 2016/06    > 
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085
Warrior
He means to ride me on
He sees a battle he don't want to face alone
I bolt upwards and shake him off my back
He falls to his knees onto a bloody track

Well I can't be your horse anymore
You're not the warrior I've been looking for

I see what you mean to do with me
I cannot protect you from who you want to be
Go face the Lord on your own
You have my love but it will not make you grow

I can't be your horse anymore
You're not the warrior I would die for

He fearing solitude, began to beg
When he saw I was sure, stuck a knife into my leg
Good luck walking on in your own bloody trail
This noble path you're on will send us both to hell

I'm just a horse on the moor
Where is my warrior I've been looking for?

I stumbled some way on, licking my sores
Tasting the memory of pain I have endured
Wondering where am I to go?
Well looking back on a bloody trail, you think that I should know

But I'm just a horse with no name
Somewhere there's other beasts who think the same
I'm just a horse with no name
Some place there's some other beasts who think the same

One morning I awoke to someone calling me
A priestess I'd seen once in some arcana dream
And she pulled an orange from the ground
Is this my warrior?
I am found

I'm just a horse with no name
Where are my other beasts who think the same?
I'm just a horse on the moor
Where is the warrior I've been looking for?
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
084
False Hope
Well is it still okay that I don’t know how to be alone?
Would it be okay if I just came home tonight?
We share an apartment on the Upper West Side
and my worst problem is I don’t sleep at night
Woman downstairs just lost her mind
and I don’t care how, sure don’t care why

Why no false hope?
Why no false hope?

A storm hits the city and the lights go out before I can prepare
The whole of downtown looks dark, like no one lives there
We share an apartment on the Upper West Side
and my worst problem is I don’t sleep at night
Woman downstairs, she's lost her mind
and I don’t care how, sure don’t care why

Why no false hope?
Why no false hope?

She’ll be alright tomorrow
Neither of us are gonna sleep tonight so it'll come slow
I hear you banging through the wall
A dying animal’s last call

Is it still okay that I don’t know how to be at all?
There’s a party uptown but I just don’t feel like I belong at all
Do I?
We share an apartment on the Upper West Side
and my worst problem is I don’t sleep at night
Woman downstairs, she's lost her mind
and I don’t care how, sure don’t care why

Why no false hope?
Why no false hope?
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
083
I Feel Your Love
Keep your love around me
Keep your love around me so I can never know what's going on
What's going on?
Keep your love around me
Keep your love around me so I can't be alone
An electric fence, a silent defence to you all
You let me in, I loved you then
The first taste is free, then you had me

I feel your love
I feel your love

Keep your love around me
Keep your love around me so I can get along
An electric fence, a silent defence to you all
Let the river answer
Let the river answer so I can get along
What's going on?
What's going on?
You must let me go before I get old
I need to find someone who really wants to be mine

I feel your love
I feel your love

Keep your love around me
Keep your love around me so I can never know what's going on
What's going on?
Let the river answer
Let the river answer so I can be alone
An electric fence, a silent defence to you all
You must let me go before I get old
I need to find someone who really wants to be mine

I feel your love
I feel your love

Please let me go
Please let me go
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
082
Walk Alone
I think you were wrong
You said I can't love
I was put upon this earth
Not by any god or master
to know you somehow

In some bar some day
I would see your face
I don't believe this shit
I was doing fine without it
Now I can't walk alone
I can't walk alone

I just need a little more time
I just need a little more highs
I just need a little something from you
Baby, I was born to love
I was born to love

I was put upon this earth
I was doing fine without it
Now I can't walk alone
I can't walk alone
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
081
Strange
I know you love your children
I know you love your wife
I know you set yourself up to live the simple life
You get it all and you realise you haven't opened up your eyes
since you were young and it's so bright
When you try to take it all in and realise you can't begin again
you wonder how you keep moving
I can offer you so little help but just accept the hands you've been dealt
and do your best to be a good man

Do you know how hard that is?
Do you know how strange life can be?

Well you love me and I know that, we can't let a precious thing go
I don't love you like you love me, I'm pretty sure that you know
Just try and bring meaning to all things and when you try to take it in
no one wants to be alone
But should you fall in love with me, your love becomes my responsibility
and I can never do you wrong

Do you know how hard that is?
Do you know how strange I love you?

No I do not believe we were born equally
Wanna know what I see?
Those who do good will be treated accordingly

I know you love your children
I know you love your wife
I know you set yourself up to live the simple life
You've got it all and you realise you haven't opened up those eyes
since you were young and it's so bright
When if you try to take it all in and realise you can't begin again
you must keep moving
I can offer you so little help but just accept the hands you've been dealt
and do your best to be a good man

Do you know how hard that is?
Yes I know how strange life can be
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
080
Don't Let Me Bring You Down
Living here is a game I don't know how to play
Are you really not anybody until somebody knows your name?
I'm not sure where that's going
Somebody used to show me, they don't feel like showing
Please don't let me bring you down
Do I look like I'm fucking around?

Love seems to be some kind of trickery
Some great thing to which I am a mystery
I'm not sure I can do it
You had it on me once before, I only just got through it
Please don't let me bring you down
Did you think I was fucking around?

I'm a woman now, can you believe?
Only one thing I'm sure of and that's that you deceive
What have you got hidden up your sleeve?
Some kind of release without relief

I'm not sure I can do it
You had it on me once before, I only just got through it
Why did you let me bring you down?
Did you think I was fucking around?
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03
079
Easy
You fell asleep listening to me linger on
about how it used to be in the back seat when we were young
When we were young
When we were young

My oldest friend, you know me then, you know me now
How did I get lost looking for God in Santa Cruz?
Where you go to lose your mind
Well I went too far this time

When we were young
When we were young we belonged to someone and that was easy

I've got us lost so I've turned us off in Joshua Tree
You're my oldest friend so I know you then and you know me
It was a bit too high for me
I spent a month thinking I was a high desert tree

When we were young
When we were young we belonged to someone and that was easy

Well you can't be lost if you're not on your own
Well you can't be found if you're not all alone
Well you can't get lost if you're not on your own
Well you can't be found if you're not all alone

When we were young
When we were young we belonged to someone and that was easy
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
078
Gurdjieff’s Daughter
If they adorn themselves with crystals
to make them look sharp
Sleep with their hand on a pistol
Well they’re afraid of the dark
Well if it wakes you
which it has been known to
Don’t be alarmed
Darkness can’t do you harm
Fear will hurt you

And outside if wind is beating
a tree to a bed
Don’t fear that it might be meeting
some untimely end
They do what they’re supposed to
But they have been known to
stand strong and tall
Weather it all
Take what you can

Never give orders
just to be obeyed
Never consider yourself or others
without knowing that you’ll change
It may not surprise you
but pride has been known to
rise up a storm
Countless lives lost
at the hands of pride and I'll fall

Who'll weep for them? Sometimes I do
I do sometimes
Who weeps for them? Sometimes I do
I do sometimes

You can’t see it, it might be behind you
Keep those eyes wide
You can’t see it, it might be behind you
Keep those eyes wide

Don’t be impressed
by strong personalities
Sincere words
are rarely sickly sweet
But if they fool you
which they have been known to
Don’t lose your sight
know something’s not right
and look at the stars

Be wary of being
given a name
if for some reason
you’re not considered the same
Once they name you
they have been known to
lock you in
Statistical sin
they’d rather ignore

Who'll weep for them? Sometimes I do
I do sometimes
Who weeps for them? Sometimes I do
I do sometimes

You can’t see it, it might be behind you
Keep your eyes wide
You can’t see it, it might be behind you
Keep those eyes wide

Keep your eyes on the back of your
Keep your eyes on the back of your
Keep your eyes on the back of your mind
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
077
Divine
Break the water
Make a ripple once in a while
Wake, it's morning
We've been sleeping for a while
Now forget what you're owed
That you're tired, time's getting on
So lay down your load
You're fine
I'm yours and you're mine
You're fine
I'm yours and you're mine

Hold tight stranger
I sense danger that won't show
Who holds the hand that holds the gun?
You might never know
But when the note lingers
sending shivers down my spine
I feel in my fingers
that I'm one with something divine
It's divine
It's divine
It's divine

I didn't drink a drop in weeks
All the waiting's only made it sweet
I tried not to freeze you before you thaw
Tried not to burn you and wait some more
When you ask what's coming, you've already chosen
When you know you're winning, you're already losing
It's divine
It's divine
It's divine

Now forget what you're owed
That you're tired, time's getting on
So lay down your load
You're fine
I'm yours and you're mine
It's divine
It's divine
It's divine
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03
076
How Can I
We've been riding up mountains
Turning corners in our lives
We would have taken any buses
Headed for Telluride

But we stopped in the desert in the middle of the night
and looked to the stars from the old roadsides
You look at me and said: "Look at the moon,
take it in it'll be gone soon"

I'm taking more risks now
I'm stepping out of line
I put up my fists now until I get what's mine
It should have been you but it was anyone
You see I never miss my chance to run
I will go anywhere with you
I will go when you ask me to

How will I live without you?
How will I live?

Well I wrote you a letter, posted out of Central L.A.
Now if you ever come through here won't you come take me away?
It could have been you but it was anyone
You see I never miss my chance to run
And I would go anywhere with you
I will go when you ask me to

How can I live without you?
How can I live?
How can I live without you?
How can I live?

I'm going back east where I belong
Where I belong
I'm going back east where I belong
Where I belong

But how will I live without you?
How can I live?
How can I live without you?
How can I live?
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
075
Howl
We expect dawn around morning
I trust the rise of the sun
I've been up late with the night birds
Begging the dawn not to come
Begging the dawn not to come

Oh how I don't want to leave you
So much I can't hardly bear
I have things I must tend to
Will you stay as you are, lying there?
Would you stay as you are, lying there?

Kissing the rain off my shoulders
Answering questions with stares
Holding my chest like I'm a wild horse
about to run away scared
About to run away scared

Sun kicks the moon off the mountain
That is my cue to leave
The long tears of women are silent
so they don't wake those who sleep
So they don't wake those who sleep

Howl at the moon
Howl at the moon, I'll come find you
Howl at the moon
Howl at the moon, I'll come find you

I'll come get you
Hope that you haven't changed your mind
I'll come get you
Hope that you haven't changed your mind
Baby be mine, be mine, be mine
Be mine, be mine
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
074
Short Movie
I'm paying for my mistake
That's OK, I don't mind a little pain
It's a short fucking movie, man
I know, I will try and take it slow

Bottled water called a drought
Come on, what's that about?
Keep me sick to make me well
Come on, what the hell?

I got up in the world today
wondered who it was I could save
Who do you think you are?
Just a girl that can play guitar

I think I could get away with
saying only half what I say
No, I can't give you up
Oh no, I'm not gonna stop

They know but they'll never know why
They know but they'll never know why

I don't know what we're afraid of now
I don't mind, oh no, I don't mind
If I fall in love to the sound of birds
on the wing and kids, I'm laughing

They know but they'll never know why
They know but they'll never know why

They know that I loved you but they don't know why
They know that I loved you but they'll never know why
It's kicking off
It's kicking off

Now it's a short fucking movie, man
It's a short fucking movie, man
It's a short fucking movie, man
It's a short fucking movie, man

I know, I will try and take it slow
I know, I will try and take it slow
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
073
Worship Me
Little boy, I know you want something from me
Yes I might be blind but I am free
Don’t you try and take that away from me

Little girl, I know you think that I’m a mystery
Yes you might be blind but you are free
Don’t you cry and wish that away from me

It's God you need
It's God you need

We’re young
We’re young and lost
and need something to put our hopes on
Need something to project on

It's God you need
It's God you need

Sit down and worship me
Sit down and worship me
Sit down and worship me

Forgive me
Forgive me
Forgive me
Forgive me

Sit down and worship me
Devote your life to peace
Sit down and worship me
Devote your life to peace and breathe
And breathe
 

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Album - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
072
Daisy
Daisy lives by the docks
Down at the white rock, running an open home
Daisy lives by the sea
I only see Daisy when she wants to see me

Daisy's alright, she's up all night
Down at the docks, running an open home
I think that you look at her wrong
I think that you look at us all wrong
A woman alone is not a woman undone

Daisy met a man from Sicily
Who sailed in one day and told her who she was gonna be
Oh did he look at her strange
For no one and nobody is Daisy gonna change

Daisy's alright, she's up all night
Down at the docks, running an open home
I think that you look at her wrong
I think that you look at us all wrong
A woman alone is not a woman undone

Daisy's got a baby now
She called her Angelina so she'd stand out of the crowd
Daisy doesn't care from where she seeds
As far as she's concerned she is immaculately conceived

Daisy's alright, she's up all night
Down at the docks, running an open home
I think that you look at her wrong
I think that you look at us all wrong
A woman alone is not a woman undone
 

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Bonus - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
071
David
I look west and I believe
He looks east and he thinks of me
No he won't see me anymore
I open gates that close his doors
Just to know that he lives and breathes
Has to be enough for me

There's an angel walking Earth
One of a kind amongst all this dirt
Sat down one day and I swallowed my pride
and I begged him not to leave my life

With a tear in my eye and a lump in my throat
I read you David's final note
Goodbye little girl, don't you forget
Wasted love is a long regret
Goodbye little girl, don't you forget
Wasted love is a long regret
Wasted love is a long regret
 

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Bonus - Short Movie 2015/03    > 
-
070
Paws Clean*
Where is the life that I was sold?
Where is a hand that I can keep a hold on?
A hold on

I am a life without a cause
I am a girl who cannot keep her paws clean
Her paws clean

I have been wandering aimlessly
There is no one to blame there's only me
Oh only me

I would like you to take your chance
I would just like oh just one more dance with you
One more dance with you

I don't need you and that's no bad thing
Just one dance with me can't be a bad thing

Give me something I can serve
Show me something that deserves my time
My time

'cause I am a life without a cause
I am a girl who cannot keep her paws clean
Her paws clean

I don't need you and it's never gonna change
Just one dance with me can't be so strange

I would like you to take your chance
I would just like oh just one more dance with you
One more dance with you

'cause I am a life without a cause
I am a girl who cannot keep her paws clean
Her paws clean
 

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Unreleased 2013/10    > 
069
Be Mine*
So a tree falls on my track
and instead of looking back
Or looking in
Well you sure have a knack
of cutting down my slack
Just when I'm trying to get travelling

I try and navigate
all the things that make me hate
What I have or haven't been
I'm trying to avoid
all the things that fill the void
But haven't ever filled a thing

I don't need them anymore
and that's the truth
Yes I loved them once before
and now I want you

I've been wandering again
Thought I was looking for a friend
I was looking for a home
I'm done with all the games
I'm ready to make my change
I need someone to take me on

It's harder to find
the same peace of mind
When you've been so sure of your own
It's hard to relent
and know it's your own judgement
That's taken you so very wrong

I don't want this anymore
I want you
Yes I loved it once before
Now that's the truth

I'm coming to get you
Hoping that you haven't changed your mind
Baby be mine
Be mine, be mine
Be mine, be mine

I don't want this anymore
I want you
Yes I loved it once before
But not as much as you

I'm coming to get you
Hoping that you haven't changed your mind
Baby be mine
Be mine, be my man
Be mine, be mine
 

[close]

 
Unreleased 2013/09
068
What Have You Done?*
I know that you don't know how to say goodbye
It keeps you on my mind
I try with all I can try to keep you off my mind
There's nowhere to hide
There's nowhere I can hide

I'll die, it's been said
of a kiss from God
What a way to go
What a way to go

Do you see what I see?
I know you do
You look at me each time
We're the ones who know
We're the only ones who know

What have you done?
What have you done?
You don't know what you're doing little one

I'm in love with your son
and there's nothing nothing
nothing nothing nothing to be done
What can I do with some absolute truth?
And it makes me want to run
Makes me want to run

What have you done?
What have you done?
I don't know what I'm doing
I'm still young

There is something just beneath
Something shy and hard to see
It's serene
It's clean and quiet
(repeat)
 

[close]

 
Unreleased 2013/09    > 
067
Loving Face*
It's simple I know
It's plain I know
But it hurts to be alone
When your friends have up and grown
Found themselves a home
somehow

It's easy to see
That you don't love me
But you won't let me be
Cause you don't want to be
alone

When you find a loving face
Never let it go to waste
When you find a loving face
Never let it go to waste

Well I'm on a march
I'm on a march
Where I don't know
I don't know much

Don't follow me
Don't want to know
Who's path I follow
When I am alone

Is your Ma alright?
Is your Ma alright?
That was brave of you right?
To come and get me in the night
Take me to your island somehow

If I find a loving face
Never let it go to waste
If I find a loving face
Never let it go to waste
 

[close]

 
Unreleased 2013/09    > 
066
Rest My Troubles Away*
I've been out walking as I often do
Humming a tune and thinking of you
I saw a man asleep by the road
Hanging on tightly to his little load

He's got nothing but the road under his head
I'm so fucking glad that I sleep in a bed
I'm so ashamed that I get up every day
and think of all the reasons I can piss it away

If I don't think about it, it's okay
If I don't think about it, it don't go away

I was gonna keep walking but I went back to his place
Looked down to see signs of life on his face
He looks alright in the land of the nod
Has anyone ever said: "Sleep brings you closer to God"?

That's the kind of stupid shit people say
When they can't justify what they do with their day
That's the kind of stupid shit people say
When they can't justify what they do with their day

I'm tired I guess
Been overthinking my day
I'll creep into my bed
Rest my troubles away
 

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Unreleased 2013/08    > 
065
One Day Soon*
Ma, I'm gonna buy you
a new pair of shoes
I make my own money now
and I owe a great debt to you

One day soon I'm gonna be
a movie star
Then I'm gonna buy you
some big ol' car
I'm gonna buy you peace somehow

Pa, I'm gonna buy you
a shirt for your back
I know it's not much and
it don't make up for what I lack

One day soon I'm gonna be
a movie star
Then I'm gonna buy you
some big ol' car
I'm gonna buy you peace somehow
Might be the last thing that I do

I'm gonna buy me
a place to lay down
I'm gonna buy me
peace somehow

One day soon I'm gonna be
a movie star
Then I'm gonna buy me
some big ol' car
I'm gonna buy me peace somehow
Might be the last thing that I do

What if peace won't come?
What if peace won't come?
Oh mama I'm gonna run
Oh mama I'm gonna run
(repeat)
 

[close]

 
Unreleased 2013/07
064
Bleed Me Dry*
I have left so many men asking why
Why I go and change my mind overnight
They can't figure me out
They'll end themselves with doubt

Well it's love that they sought
and I was taught
Not to give it away
unless you're sure

What am I to do if I don't want to be alone?
How can I be sure of what it is I don't yet know?
I can't figure it out
I'll end myself with doubt

Well it's love that I need
And to love you have to bleed
And I'm not sure I've got a drop to spare

Can you help me?
Can you help me?
Anything you've got
is gonna help this penny drop

I'd near done believing when I found you
Given up the ghost of anything that love can do
I couldn't get out of bed
I was all up in my head

Well it's love that I need
And to love you have to bleed
And I'm not sure I've got a drop to spare

Can you help me?
Can you help me?
Anything you've got
is gonna help this penny drop

I won't leave you in the night
I won't leave you asking why
If it's love that you need
Your love is safe with me
Just don't go bleeding me dry

Well it's love that you need
Your love is safe with me
Just don't go bleeding me dry
 

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Unreleased 2013/06    > 
063
Narrow Road*
That's enough now, leave a girl alone
Don't you know when it's time that you be gone?
I don't understand you like I understood before
Love you're a temptress, you're a whore

You push me into danger when I never walk alone
Told me I would feel things I had not yet known
You took me from logic and it's my safest domain

Love you are hell by
Love you are hell by
Love you are hell by another name

My road is narrow and I always walk alone
Temptingly parallel to those that I have known
and grown to bear, as they've grown to bear me

Come walk my narrow
Come walk my narrow
Come walk my narrow road with me

That's enough now, I can't take it anymore
Don't come knocking or asking at my door
I loved you then as I've loved you before

Love you are hell by
Love you are hell by
Love you are hell by another name

Come walk my narrow
Come walk my narrow
Come walk my narrow road with me
 

[close]

 
Unreleased 2013/05    > 
-
062
Take the Night Off
You should begone beast
Begone from me
Begone from my mind at least
Let a little lady be

I don't want you to want me
Wouldn't want you to know
I don't care where you've gone beast
I care where you go

Take the night off
and be bad for me
Take it right off
and be bad for me

You're a night bird, early riser
You have a kind of wing
to take her and surprise her

I didn't understand where you had gone
Didn't know you'd be right back
I didn't hear the night song
calling for you into the black

Take the night off
and be bad for me

Didn't ask you to save me
Not when you knew me well
Wouldn't ask you even to behave for me
I know there's no helping hell

Take the night off
and be bad for me

Take it right off
and be bad for me
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
061
I Was An Eagle
So your grandmother sounds to me
A woman I would be proud to be
And you say she reminds you of me
Every little boy is so naive

Oh, I will not be a victim of romance
I will not be a victim of circumstance
Chance or circumstance or romance, or any man
who could get his dirty little hands on me

So your grandfather sounds like me
Head up, shoulders back and proud to be
Every little girl is so naive
Falling in love with the first man that she sees

Oh, I will not be a victim of romance
I will not be a victim of circumstance
Chance or circumstance or romance, or any man
who could get his dirty little hands on me

When we were in love
If we were
When we were in love
I was an eagle and you were a dove

Today I will feel something other than regret
Pass me a glass and a half-smoked cigarette
I've damn near got no dignity left
I've damn near got no dignity left

Oh, I will not be a victim of romance
I will not be a victim of circumstance
Chance or circumstance or romance, or any man
who could get his dirty little hands on me

When we were in love
If we were
When we were in love
I was an eagle and you were a dove

When we were in love
If we were
When we were in love
You were a dove and I rose above you and preyed
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
060
You Know
Damn all those people
who don't lose control
Who will never take a foot out of life
You might not think that I care
but you don't know what I know

And damn all those hippies
who stomp empty-footed
Upon all what's good
all what's pure of the world
You might not think that I care
but you don't know what I know

And bless all those mothers
who do all they can
Just to take their faults out of the line
I might not know what it's like
but I'm glad that you know

Give me a minute there
Just a minute now
It'll come back to me
I was so sure
But you freewheelin' troubadour
you took my mind off the scene
And you know, and I know, and I know
I know that you know

You asked me blind once
if I was a child once
And I said I'm really not sure
How can you know?
How can you know?
What it is you don't know?

We were a pair once
of oh such despair oh
We were a child then I'm sure
If we were a child then
we are children no more

Give me a minute there
Just a minute now
It'll come back to me
I was so sure
But you freewheelin' troubadour
you took my mind off the scene
And you know, and I know, and I know
I know that you know

You know, you know, you know
when I know that you know
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
059
Breathe
You came here to tell me something I already know
The dark before the dawn is the darkest I can go
The calm before the storm is what leaves me here to breathe
So breathe

Us of constant banging
Throwing fists against the wall
Screaming at the earth
for what it's done to one and all
I came here to tell you something you already know
Just breathe
Breathe

How cruel I am to you
Hmm cruel things I do
How cruel you were to me
How cruel time can be

I wrote you a book
but I left it out in the rain
Left it there to dry
but it got rained on once again
Us of constant banging
Throwing fists against the wall
Breathe
Breathe

How cruel you are to me
How cruel time can be
How cruel I was to you
How cruel things I do

When you wake you'll know I'm gone
and where I'm going there's no one
So don't follow me
Whatever you may hear or see
Don't follow me
Whatever you may hear or see
(repeat)
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
058
Master Hunter
I am a master hunter
I cured my skin
Now nothing gets in
Nothing, not as hard as it tries

You want a woman cause you wanna be saved
Well I'll tell you that I got a little/lot on my plate
You want a woman who will call your name
It ain't me babe
No no no
It ain't me babe

I don't stare at water anymore
Water doesn't do what it did before
It took me in and to the edge of insane
when I only meant to swim
I nearly put a bullet in my brain
when the rhythm took me in

I am a master hunter

You let men into your bed
Did they not know you well?
They can't get into my head
They don't have a hope in hell

You see the thing is we are so alone
There's nothing we can share
You can get me on the telephone
but you won't keep me there
No no no, you won't keep me there

Take me somewhere I can grow
Give me something, let me go
Tell me something I don't know
I have some news
I have some news

Is this what you think I do
in life when I’m not being used?
You see, you're not sad you live for the blues
You're not sad you live for the blues
I have some news
Wrestling a rope from darkness
is no fucking life that I would choose

I am a master hunter
I cured my skin
Now nothing gets in
Nothing, not as hard as it tries

I am a master
I am a master
I am a master hunter
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
057
Little Love Caster
Yes I am
Yes I am a master
I have you bad man
Little love
Little love caster
Palm of my hand

I wish that I had
I wish that I had've told you then
where my kindness ends

I would take you home
I would take you home and then
our love spell will end

You are new to me
You are new to me
I can't seem to say:
"I'd like you to stay"

Yes I am
Yes I am a master
I have you bad man
Little love
Little love caster

They might know you best
They might know you best and love you most
I would take you home
I would take you home and then
I would be your ghost

I saw a lady dance yesterday
She was easily swayed
I cannot be tossed and turned in this way
I'm not your tiny dancer

I can't seem to say:
"I'd like you to stay"

I see a lady dance yesterday
She was easily swayed
I cannot be tossed and turned in this way
I'm not your tiny dancer

I can't seem to say:
"I'd like you to stay"
I can't seem to say:
"I'd like you to stay"
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
056
Devil's Resting Place
I woke up one morning
to know that I had gone
Finally taken a step
and jumped right off the wall
When you come to call on me
that's why my eyes are glazed
I've been with the devil
in the devil's resting place

I am loathed to say
that I've been to stay
I've been with the devil
in the devil's resting place

When you ask to drink of me
I think hard on the case
Look down to my hallowed cup
and take myself a taste
Bitterness is thick like blood
and cold as a wind sea breeze
If you must drink of me
take of me what you please

I am loathed to say
It's the devil's taste
I've been with the devil
in the devil's resting place

Water won't clean you
Water won't clean you
You only hold yourself
to the things you do

Come up here to speak to me
and hold your face to mine
Any man who can hold my gaze
has done his job just fine
You just sold your life away
to be with me tonight
Hold your head against my chest
I think you'll be just fine

I am loathed to say
It's the devil's place
I go with the devil
where the devil rests his face
I've been with the devil
where the devil rests his face

Water won't clean you
Water won't clean you
You only hold yourself
to the things you do
You only hold yourself
to the things you do
(repeat)
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05
055
Undine
Made my steps towards the water
where Undine last was seen
I was told that if you saw her
she would make you more naive
Made my steps towards the shore
where she sang her love at me
O Undine so sweet and pure
make me more naive

O Undine, sing your love to me
O Undine, no not love as love is seen

There were ropes around my wrist
and the tide pulled at her hair
Pulling her away from me
and me away from there
Yes the water tried to take her
Tried to make poor Undine hide
But she fought herself against it
Love in her had not yet died

O Undine, sing your love to me
O Undine, fight your way
fight your way

You live for the sea
Undine, you live for the sea
You cannot, you cannot

What's going on in there?
What's going on in there?
Let me in

It was cold there in December
so I took my coat and left
Left Undine by the embers
That's all our fire had left
Left Undine by the shore
where she sang her love at me
O Undine so sweet and pure
No not love as love is seen

You live for the sea
Undine, you live for the sea
You cannot, you cannot

what's going on in there?
what's going on in there?
Let me in

You live for the sea
Undine, you live for the sea
You cannot, you cannot
You cannot love me
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
054
Where Can I Go?
I was a daddy's girl sometime
but I loved my mama till the end of the line
I am cold and I am bright
It's a curse of mine to be sad at night
It's a curse of mine to be sad at night

Late at night he'll come to me
and he'll tell me I'm alone
Don't you think I don't already know?

All I see is road
No one takes me home
Where, where can I go?

Truth about desire they say
is a need to breathe for another day
Truth I heard about regret
Is the hardest truth I've come to yet
It's the hardest truth I've come to yet

Late at night he'll come to me
and he'll tell me I'm alone
Don't you think I don't already know?

All I hear are woes
There's something I don't know
Where, where can I go?

All I see is road
No one takes me home
Where, where can I go?

If I feel like I want to be alone
If I feel like I'm better fought than won
Pick up your rope and jump for Rosie
She's just a sweet thing with a curl
Just about a woman with her clothes on
You take them off and she's a girl

All I hear are woes
There's something I don't know
Where, where can I go?
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
053
Once
In the land I now know to be mine
With a heart so dark it's near blind
When I think about the life I left behind
I still raise no praise to the sky

With my eyes on the prize of your bed
When all that's needed saying has been said
When I think about the life that I have led
I lay down to the sound of the why

Once, once is enough to break you
Once, once is enough to make you think twice
About laying your love out on the line

With all I now know to be true
And all I figured out about you
All the crazy things a mind can do
I lay down to the sound of the truth

Once, once is enough to break you
Once, once is enough to make you think twice
About laying your little love out on the line

Oh, I was a child once
Oh, I was happy young
When all I didn't know needed doing
Had been done
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
052
Pray For Me
Where does my lover lie?
I don't love I just lie
So pray, pray for me

And where you run I run in tow
And where you're from I long to know

How does a child know
where mother's weakness goes?
And where, and where the trouble goes
Well you will speak and it shall be so
And what you say will be all I know

There was a time of weeks
I thought dogs barked at me
And I, and I had lost my mind
And the devil had put his mark on me
And calls his branches: "Shake your trees"

That not me for my trying
That's the devil and his lying
Trying to make me lose my mind
So pray, pray for me

So you got my letter late
from when I permanently etched my name
Right, right into your soul
I cannot love I want to be alone
I will not love I want to be alone

That's not me for my trying
That's the devil and his lying
Trying to make me
when I'm trying to be good
So pray, pray for me

But where he runs I run in tow
And where you're from I long to know
And you will speak and it shall be so
But I cannot love I want to be alone

Pray, pray for me
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
051
When Were You Happy? (And How Long Has That Been)
Hey there new friend across the sea
if you figure things out would you figure in me?
Wouldn't it be a thing, to live somewhere quietly
where there's a breeze and there's a reason for us to be?

I look at people here in this city
and wonder if they're lonely or like me
they're not content to live as things are meant to be

When were you happy?
And how long has that been?

Who speaks for them and then again
who speaks for me?
My vote was never counted so who upon this earth
knows what it is that I believe?

We're all looking for answers
where no answers can be found
Or is that a concern of mine
because I have the time
to question my ground?

Hey there new friend across the sea
if you figure things out would you figure in me?
Hey there new friend across the sea
if you figure things out would you figure in me?

I find the more I think
the harder it is for me to breathe
When were we happy?
And how long has that been?
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
050
Love Be Brave
In a world you can't get lost in
I find my way to him
I am purpose and regret
You're a feeling I'll forget
What will I do then?

How did I sleep at night
with you far from my side?
Hold me down, make no sound
Silence speaks for me

Love be brave
No one will say it but you
And that has not yet been
the easy thing for you to do

How does he make love seem sweet?
Isn't that some heavy feat?
Do the birds suffer so?
Do they sing because they know?
This life don't go slow

Love be brave
No one will save you but me
And that has not yet been
the safest place for you to be
What will I do then?

Here comes a change over me
Something strange takes over me
I am brave and love is sweet
And silence speaks for him and me
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
049
Little Bird
O Rosie
Where have you been?
I couldn't save you
but I tried Rosie
I tried

Why did you run
from everyone?
Who only tried to love you Rosie
Only tried

Little bird, if I only knew
Maybe I'd be more like you
With a feather in my wing
Is it spring?
Do I sing?

Maybe I like pleasure pain
Of going and coming back again
what I leave behind
I come back to find
It's no longer mine

So why not run
from every one?
Who only tries to love you Rosie
Only tries

Little bird, if I only knew
Maybe I'd be more like you
With a feather in my wing
Is it spring?
Do I sing?

Maybe I like pleasure pain
of going and coming back again
what I leave behind
I come back to find
it's no longer mine

Little bird if I only knew
Maybe I’d be more like you
With a feather in my wing
Is it spring?
Do I sing?
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
048
Saved These Words
When your work is over
Your day is done
Put down your hammer
Into my world come

Life is heavy
When you're no master's son
When you're ready
Into my arms come
Into my arms come

Love's not easy
Not always fun
And words are sleazy
My love is better done
My love is better done

Should you choose
Should you choose
To love anyone
Anytime soon
Then I save these words for you

You weren't my curse
You weren't my curse
Thank you naivety for failing me again
He was my next verse

Should you choose
Should I choose
To love anyone
Anytime soon
Then I save these words for you

You weren't my curse
You weren't my curse
Thank you naivety for failing me again
He was my next verse

I save these words for you
 

[close]

 
Album - Once I Was An Eagle 2013/05    > 
-
047
Not Done Travelling*
I took the winter to travel
Headed for the road
Couldn't bear no sunshine
I took off on my own

You won't see me till springtime
Never see me again
I'm headed for the east coast
to find my wayward friend

He likes the mountains in the daytime
He's fond of the desert at night
I think he likes to be alone
so I curl up at his side

You won't hear a peep from me boy
Never see me again
Oh if I choose to run son
I run till the mountains end

I think he likes my silence
I think he likes my smell
I like the way you hit your t's
when you talk about what you know well

You won't hear a peep from me boy
I may never say a word again
Oh before I take my silence
I'd like to get to know you friend

I like it here on the east coast
I like the state I'm in
I like the way you live here
but I'm not done travelling

I should stay a while though
I cannot just run again
But I'm in love with you boy
Come with me travelling

It may not last forever
Nothing ever does
And there's nothing quite so fickle
as a travelling lover's love

I'll come back for you boy
I'll be back again
Oh when the road doesn't call me
my travels they will end
 

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Unreleased 2012/09    > 
046
To Be A Woman
I feel a bond between us
I have felt like you do
I know better
than to take it away from you

I have a right
The only one in my life
A right to what is rightfully mine
Untainted, untempted, and sober

I will never touch that skin again
I will never feel that way again
I will never look into the face
of my father or my friends
and be able to say
I'm okay, I'm okay
I don't feel pain anyway
Not anymore, anyway

And I'm not dead yet
I could be soon
And all I want to do
Is put my arms around you
Little girl, it's all so new

Go little girl, you need to learn little girl
Not to take what is mine
I'm not dead yet
I could be soon
And now all I want to do
Is put my arms around you
Little girl, it's all so new

Go little girl, you need to learn little girl
What it is to be a woman
 

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B-side - Flicker and Fail single 2012/04    > 
045
Come Back My Man / I Need Your Hand*
My wife has left me
My daughter won't speak anymore
And all through the chaos
I drag myself up to your door
Where you are
And where you are, not alone anymore

You have a man at home
and he keeps you warm
But all through the nights that I'm dreaming
I dream of your door
Where you are
And where I am, not alone with you

Come back my man
I need your hand
Ever your sigh
Wounded by        

I’ve yet to meet a man
who hears any voice but his own
Well I might just sit with him
Not dreaming being alone
Where you are
And where I am, not alone anymore

I have a man at home
and he keeps me warm
But all through the nights that I'm dreaming
I dream of your door
And what lies behind
And what lies behind, inside that mind of yours

Come back my man
I need your hand
Ever your sigh
Wounded by        
 

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Unreleased 2011/10
-
044
The Muse
God's work is planned
I stand here with a man
That talked to me so candidly
More than I'd choose

My lips at once are rouged
I feel again the blues
Of longing, ever longing to be
Confused

He wrote me a letter
Saying he would love me better
Than my poor son's begetter
The Ruse

Spoke of love like hunger
He at once was younger
Younger, ever younger in my hunger
For a Muse

Finest man that I've seen
Ever since my eyes have been
But his honesty did gleam
Me blind

Keep those thoughts from sight
Follow me into the night
And you can call on me when you need
The light

You know what I need
Why won't you give it me?
Must I fall down at your feet
And plead

Don't you be scared of me
I'm nothing but the beast
And I'll call on you
When I need to feast
 

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Album - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
043
I Was Just a Card
I was just a card
Caught up in the stars
Looking down to Mars
You know, you know
I know, I know something
About you
That you don't want me to know

Never found a solid hand
Till I found that man
Till I found that man of mine
You were looking at me, thinking,
"Who am I?"

Never knew the sky was white
Till I took that flight
Till I took that flight to him
Tonight

I was just a card
Caught up in the stars
Looking down from Mars
You know, you know
He knows, he knows something
About me
That I don't want him to know

Could've sworn I had that man
When he took my hand
When he took my hand down in AU
You were looking at me, thinking,
"Who is she?"

I didn't even see the night
Till I said goodbye
Till I said goodbye to him
Tonight
 

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Album - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
042
Don't Ask Me Why
I choose to stay far away
from the ones that think
money is money to share
Don't ask me why
I'll tell you no lies

Sonny don't come here no more
He don't drink from this well
Oh he's done with the world
And done with the girl
And I don't ask him why
He tells me no lies

Those of us who are lost and low
I know how you feel
I know it's not right but it's real

I don't ask for love
and I don't beg for money
I'm just asking for grace and forgiveness
now honey, don't ask me why
I'll tell you no lies

Been looking for answers
in unsavoury places
On the highest of mountains
and on the lowest of bases
And I still don't know why
I still don't know why

Those of us who are lost and low
We know how you feel
We know it's not right but it's real
But it's real

I took the wind from the sea
I took the blood from an arrow
I took the wisdom of spring
I was thrown and blown and tossed and turned until
Time found its hand and called it an end
Me and time we go way back when
I was a child
And I always knew why

And I knew my name
Oh I knew my road
And I stayed away from heavy loads
And still, I am low
Oh Lord am I low

Those of us who are lost and low
I know how you feel
I know it's not right but it's real
But it's real
 

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Album - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
041
Salinas
I am from Salinas
Where the women go forever
and they never ever stop to ask why
My mother was a saviour
of six foot of bad behaviour
With long blonde curly hair down to her thigh
Oh my mother
Oh my friends
I ask the angels,
"Will I ever see heaven again?"

Late into the evening
they would take each other screaming
Looking darkly to the back of her eye
A careless beast was bleating
that the air behind was breathing
That they musn't ever look up to the sky
There no answers
There are found
I ask the angels,
"Am I heaven bound?"

Mmmm put it down to me
I, who speak awkwardly
Any word if it is heard is not intended to be
Not for him, not for her,
not for them and not for me
Oh and that gun will turn
before the sun starts to burn
Understand

Mmmm when the clouds roll in
we start playing for our sins
With a gun in my hand
and my son at my shoulder
Believe I will run
before that boy gets older
Oh and when that gun will turn
before the sun starts to burn
Understand
Oh and that gun will turn
before the sun starts to burn
Understand

I am from Salinas
Where the women go forever
and they never ever stop to ask why
My mother, she's a saviour
of six foot of bad behaviour
With long blonde curly hair down to her thigh
Oh my mother
Oh my friends
I ask the angels,
"Will I ever see heaven again?"
"Will I ever see heaven again?"
"Will I ever see heaven again?"

Punish them all for they speak too much
Hate the world for what it did to us
Will I ever see heaven again?
 

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Album - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
040
The Beast
Where did our love go?
You will never know
How did you get home?
You will never know
Did you catch yourself
in the mirror?
It's a sight I understand
You consider it all for a second
and put it down to slight of hand

You know I've been running 'round for hours
Calling my Egyptian blood
to bear me flowers
Calling Sophia, goddess of power

Instead I got the beast
and tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
And here come the beast

You're okay now, i suppose
You're not pulled by the rope
I'm pulled by the pull on my throat
I'm pulled by the rope
I swing from the trees into the slope
Hold my head high, just by the tip of my toes
And he lies, he lies so sweet that I choke

Tonight I choose the beast
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
And here come the beast

Put your eyes away
if you can't bear to see
Your old lady lay
down next to the beast
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
And here come the beast

Look at yourself in the mirror
It's a sight I understand
You consider it all for a second
And put it down to slight of hand
I give you the best advice that I can

What I suggest is you be grateful
there's no blood on my hands
And assume yourself weaker, the fall of man
And look out for the beast
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
And here come the beast

Put your eyes away
if you can't bear to see
Your old lady lay
down next to the beast
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
And here come the beast
 

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Album - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
039
Night After Night
Darling I loved you
I longed to become you
I know what it is that you gave
We dance the sorrow
Forgive me tomorrow
I pray

Night after night
Day after day
Would you watch my body weaken?
My mind drift away?

Dear lover forsaken
Our love is taken away
Well you were my speaker
My innocence keeper
I don't

Night after night
Day after day
Would you watch my body weaken?
My mind drift away?

Dear lover forgiven
My love is driven by rage
Oh I should just leave you
Instead of deceive you
But I don't

Night after night
Day after day
Would you watch my body weaken?
My mind drift away?

I count to no one
Hold nobody's ear
I showed you my hand once
and you hit me in fear
I don't stand for the devil
I don't whisper in ears
I stand on the mountains and call
people to hear

It's a sudden burst of light
It's a fate foretold
It is knowing
It is knowing

He longs for the answers
as all of us must
He longs for the woman
who will conquer his lust
He screams in the night
I scream in the day
We weep in the evening
and lie naked and pray

Night after night
Day after day
Night after night
Day after day
Night after night
Day after day
Would you watch my body weaken?
My mind drift away?

It's a tempting communion
It's a fate foretold
It is knowing
It is knowing
What it is that you're told
 

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Album - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
038
My Friends
My friends, my dear friends
And lovers, oh my lovers
I'd leave you for them
They've got a hand on my back

Mama has money now and mama has friends
She's making rags for some uptown hags
With their money in bags
And why are you so sad?

Why are you always so sad?
Why do I not understand?
Why don't I see what it is you see?
Why can't I live and just be?

I'm full of guilt
I am full of guilt
You're very tall, you're very handsome
You have it all, your skin smells like man
And I, you'll never know how I ached
You will never know how I ache

Ever considered the sea?
I heard you had to be strong
Why not float around with me?
It won't take you so long
You can go where I'm at
You can hang around with me

A few good men will go where they ought
Where they ought not be
And a few good mothers go for what they
What they ought not teach
I long for a touch or reminder of us but
But it must not be
And a few strong branches over water reach for
what they ought not reach

I hope your mother knows
where it is you have been
I hope your mother knows
what it is you have seen
She'd be so proud
 

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Album - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
037
Rest in the Bed
There lies a man of my heart
A fine and complete work of art
Here I his woman
His home and his heart
And proud to be playing that part
And proud to be playing that part

Rest in the bed of my bones
All that I want is a home
And all you can do
Is promise me bold
That you won't let me grow dark
Or cold
As long as we both shall live

The bite will come
But you'll feel your call as a son
As I believe in you

The first deal's the hardest I'm sure
Where our shadows come to the shore
Know that it's you and I till the end
And all I want from life is to hold your hand

All that I have are these bones
And all that I want is a home
And all you can do
Is promise me bold
That you won't let me grow dark
Or cold
As long as we both shall live

The sirens come
They always will
But the dart between my heart and his
Is as good as a diamond chain

Rest in the bed of my bones
All that I want is a home
And all you can do
Is promise me bold
That you won't let me grow dark
Or cold
As long as we both shall live
 

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Album - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
036
Sophia
Oh I have been wandering
Where I have been pondering
Where I've been lately
is no concern of yours
Who's been touching my skin?
Who have I been letting?
Shy and tired eyed am I today

I'm wounded by dust
Oh I have been wondering
Where I have been pondering
Where I've been lately
is no concern of yours
Who's been touching my skin?
Who have I been letting?
Shy and tired eyed am I today

Sometimes I sit, sometimes I stare
Sometimes they look and sometimes I don't care
Rarely I weep, sometimes I must
I'm wounded by dust

When the bell toll, when the bell gon' chime
You better call for your woman up high
And when the bell tolls for your last day
You'll be getting down on your knees to pray
I'm a good woman and I never did say
'ever it was that you did that day
Now I'm not a woman to go and place blame
but you said that it was coming on judgement day

Now Sophia
I'm wounded by dust

Now when the bell toll, when the bell gon' chime
You better call for your woman up high
And when the bell tolls for your last day
You'll be getting down on your knees to pray
I'm a good woman and I never did say
'ever it was that you did that day
I'm not a woman to go and place blame
but you said that it was coming on judgement day

Oh Sophia
I'm wounded by dust
Now Sophia
 

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Album - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
035
All My Rage
Stole my children, left my son
Of all of them, he's the only one
who did not mean that much to me
I tip my cap to the raging sea

Cover me up, I'm pale as night
With a mind so dark and skin so white
Is this the devil having fun?
Tip my cap to the raging sun

Now all my rage been gone
Now all my rage been gone
I leave my rage to the sea and the sun
I leave my rage to the sea and the sun

Stole my children, left my son
Of all of them, he's the only one
Who did not mean that much to me
I tip my cap to the raging sea

Daughter, she's the pretty one
I married her off to the reverend's son
Now she lives in a sin-free world
Tip your cap to the brave old girl

Now all my rage been gone
Now all my rage been gone
I leave my rage to the sea and the sun
I leave my rage to the sea and the sun

Now all my rage been gone
Now all my rage been gone
I leave my rage to the sea and the sun
I leave my rage to the sea and the sun
 

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Album - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
034
Flicker and Fail
He took a bus to meet me
in a bar in a Tuscan hill
Oh a sight I'd never seen
I believe in God still
But you wouldn't be able to stop me
if I feel like running away
Wouldn't be able to stop me
if I didn't want to stay

And the rain fell on the houses
And the rain fell on the trees
It fell it's fiercest on the skulls of
the willingly deceived
They put money in their hearts
and God where their mouth is
They put money in their hearts
and God

Said he'd been sleeping lonely
spending nights under the stars
Little darling we're all lonely
we don't all show our scars
It's my heart and my burden
And I would never bring you down like that
My heart, my burden
I would never bring you down with me

And the rain fell on the towers
And on the great swaying trees
And it hammered and it raged on us
unwillingly

The believers were forewarned
and they ran into the storm
And watched the earth's light
flicker and fail
They watched the earth's light
flicker and fail
Flicker and, flicker and fail

They put money in their hearts
and God where their mouth is
They put money in their hearts
and God where their mouth is
They put money in their hearts
and God where their mouth is
They put money in their hearts
and God
 

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Bonus - A Creature I Don't Know 2011/09    > 
-
033
Mama How Far I’ve Come
I didn’t think I’d be anyone
Oh mama how far I’ve come
Oh mama how far I’ve come
And I didn’t think we’d go anywhere
Oh my darling au contraire
Oh my darling au contraire

I’ll grow up and make someone a wife
Him and me we’ll make us a life
And I’ll freak out and cut off my hair
Brand new start I’ll start it there

Didn’t grow back for a few good years
Shed many tears, shed many tears
And I know that I shouldn’t care
If people look what they see there

I know that I’m good inside
And if people don’t I shouldn’t mind
If people don’t I shouldn’t mind

Oh now mama how far I’ve come
I’m somebody and I love someone
I’m somebody and I love someone

And I feel the weight of a woman now
With iron bones and full of fire
And I could leave at any stage
But the weight of a woman tells me to stay
Weight of a woman tells me to stay

Oh now mama how far I’ve come
I’m somebody and I love someone
Oh now mama how far I’ve come
I’m somebody and I love someone
 

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B-side - Rambling Man single 2010/05    > 
-
032
Devil's Spoke
That I might be a part of this
Ripple on water from a lonesome drip
A fallen tree that witnessed me
Him alone, him and me

And that life itself could not aspire
To have someone be so admired
I threw creation to my kin
With a silence broken by a whispered wind

All of this can be broken
All of this can be broken
Hold your devil by his spoke and spin him to the ground

Root to root and tip to tip
I look at him my country gyp
Leathered up by all his fears
But someone brought you close to tears

Many trains and many miles
Brought you to me on this sunny isle
And what of which you wish to speak
Have you come here to rescue me?

All of this can be broken
All of this can be broken
Hold your devil by his spoke and spin him to the ground

But the love of your life lives but lies no more
and where she lay your flower grows
And the arms that fed and the babes that wed
and the backs that bled, keeping her in tow

But I am your keeper
And I hold your face away from light
I am yours till they come
I am yours till they come

Eye to eye, nose to nose
Ripping off each others clothes in a most peculiar way
Eye to eye, nose to nose
Ripping off each others clothes in a most peculiar way
 

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Album - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
031
Made By Maid
They dance like sirens
Hoping the sun would come out again
And I was born in the fog of that day
Could they hear a babe, under all that faith
Or have they forgot what it was that they made?

Crawled out of the fog, found a river
Found a log and floated away
Didn’t think I’d be coming back this way
But my feet resolute, found their root
and brought me back to its place

And on the hill where I was born
There is a rose without a thorn
They cut it off each year and give it away
But can I hear a babe after all these days
Or have they forgot what it was that they made?

So left to wander blind
I find myself in cautious times and they say:
“Love’s labour's never lost
but labour on to this very day”

So I walk into the fog
Find a babe atop a log and all alone
Took him under, took him on
And taught him everything about the world
I’ve come to know

He blames me for every wrong ever he made
I am blamed for every wrong ever he made
Forgive me I am only a maid
Forgive me I am only a maid

But I can still see a babe
Under all that blame
But I am forgot from the day I am laid
 

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Album - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
030
Rambling Man
Oh naive little me
Asking what things you have seen
And you’re vulnerable in your head
You’ll scream and you’ll wail till you’re dead

Creatures veiled by night
Following things that aren’t right
And they’re tired and they need to be led
You’ll scream and you’ll wail till you’re dead

But give me to a rambling man
Let it always be known that I was who I am

Beaten, battered, and cold
My children will live just to grow old
But if I sit here and weep
I’ll be blown over by the slightest of breeze

And the weak need to be led
And the tender are carried to their bed
And it's a pale and cold affair
And I’ll be damned if I’ll be found there

But give me to a rambling man
Let it always be known that I was who I am

It’s funny how the first chords that you come to
Are the minor notes that come to serenade you
And it’s hard to accept yourself as someone
you don’t desire
As someone you don’t want to be

Oh give me to a rambling man
and let it always be known that I was who I am
Oh give me to a rambling man
and Let it always be known that I was who I am
 

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Album - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
029
Blackberry Stone
Well I own this field and I wrote this guide
And I have no reason to reason with you

I’d be sad that I never held your hand as you were lowered
but I'd understand that I’d never let it go
I’d be sad that I never held your hand as you were lowered
but I’d understand the world does what it does

And you never did learn to let the little things go
And you never did learn to let me be
And you never did learn to let little people grow
And you never did learn how to see

But I’d whisper that I love this man, now and for forever
to your soul as it floats out of the window
To the world that you turned your back on
To the world that never really let you be

And I am lower now and lower still
And you did always say that one day I would suffer
You did always say that people get their pay
You did always say that I was going places
And that you wouldn’t have it any other way

But I couldn’t turn my back
on a world for what I lack, it wouldn’t let me
But I couldn’t turn my back
on a world for what I like, I need it

And I couldn’t turn my back
on a world for what I lack, it wouldn’t let me
And I couldn’t turn my back
on a world for what I like, I need it
And I shouldn’t turn my back
on a sweet smelling blackberry stone
 

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Album - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
028
Alpha Shallows
He could fall and shake and weep
By his holy are my feet
And heart with mention the dear that may not speak
We feel tight when there is tension
And our eyes can make us weep

And his heart was full of fire
at the man he had become
And his soul was seldom higher
with the falsities of fun
Could embrace sweet desires in moments as they pass
but he feared ever more, he saw it didn't last

We walk up Holland Avenue
and watch the rich as they consume
Their product made our hearts exude
an emptiness unrivalled by
The hunger that I could control
He'd pray up to his God that he might save their soul

The grey in this city is too much to bear
The grey in this city is too much to bear
And I believe we are meant to be seen
and not to be understood

And I want to be held by those arms
I want to be held by those arms

You'll work your thumbs till they're sore
And you'll work my heart till it's raw
And you'll call and you'll call but you'll never be told
And I'll fall and I'll fall and I'll fall
And I'll fall and I'll fall and I'll fall

We are basic light
We are basic light
 

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Album - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
027
Goodbye England (Covered in Snow)
You were so smart then in your jacket and coat
My softest red scarf was warming your throat
Winter was on us at the end of my nose
And I never love England more than when covered in snow

But a friend of mine says it’s good to hear
that you believe in love, even if said in fear
Well I’ll hold you there brother and set you straight
I only believe true love is frail and willing to break

I will come back here, bring me back when I’m old
I want to lay here forever in the cold
I might be cold but I’m just skin and bones
And I never love England more than when covered in snow

I wrote my name in your book, only god knows why
And I bet you that he cracked a smile
And I’m clearing all the crap out of my room
Trying desperately to figure out
what it is that makes me blue
And I wrote an epic letter to you

And it’s twenty-two pages front and back
But it’s too good to be used
And I try to be a girl who likes to be used
I’m too good for that, there’s a mind under this hat
And I called them all and told them I’ve got to move

I'm out Ma, it's too hard
I’m on my own, it’s too hard
Feel like running, feel like running
Run it off

And we will keep you, we will keep you
Little one, safe from harm
Like an extra arm you are a part of us

You were so smart then in your jacket and coat
My softest red scarf was warming your throat
Winter will leave us, left the end of my nose
But goodbye old England until next year’s snow
 

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Album - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
026
Hope in the Air
There is a man that I know
For seventeen years he never spoke
Guessed he had nothing to say
He opened his mouth on judgement day

I listened with all of my might
But was scared by the look in his eyes
Like he’d already lost the fight
And there was no hope ever in sight

No hope in the air
No hope in the water
Not even for me
Your last serving daughter

Why fear death?
Be scared of living
Oh hearts are small and ever thinning
There is no hope ever of winning
Oh why fear death?
Be scared of living

I have seen men provoked
And I have seen lives revoked
And I looked at my life and I choked
From there no more ever I spoke

I can’t give up that quick
My life is a candle and a wick
You can put it out
but you can’t break it down
In the end we are waiting to be lit

There’s hope in the air
There’s hope in the water
But sadly not me
Your last serving daughter

A friend is a friend forever
And a good one will never leave, never
But you’ve never been south
of what rolls off your mouth
You will never understand the ever

You speak minds handed down to you
By the lies handed down by your truth
And your angels that dance at your will
Will mask your scrabbling youth

I forgave you your shortcomings
And ignored your childish behaviour
Laid a kiss on your head and before I left said:
“Stay away from fleeting favour”

There’s hope in the air
There’s hope in the water
But sadly not me
Your last serving daughter

Pick up your rope Lord, sling it to me
If we are to battle I must not be weak
And give us your strength world
And your food and your water
Oh I am your saviour
Your last serving daughter

There’s hope in the air
There’s hope in the water
But sadly not me
Your last serving daughter

There’s hope in the air
There’s hope in the water
But no hope for me
Your last serving daughter
 

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Album - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
025
What He Wrote
Forgive me Hera, I cannot stay
He cut out my tongue, there is nothing to say
Love me oh Lord, he threw me away
He laughed at my sins, in his arms I must stay

He wrote, I’m broke
Please send for me
But I am broken too and spoken for
Do not tempt me

Her skin is white and I’m light as the sun
So holy light shines on the things you have done
So I asked him how he became this man
How did he learn to hold fruit in his hands?
And where is the lamb that gave you your name?
He had to leave though I begged him to stay

Left me alone when I needed the light
Fell to my knees and I wept for my life
If he had of stayed
you might understand
If he had of stayed
you never would have never taken my hand

He wrote, I'm low
Please send for me
But I am broken too and spoken for
Do not tempt me

And where is the lamb that gave you your name?
He had to leave though I begged him to stay
Begged him to stay in my cold wooden grip
Begged him to stay by the light of this ship
Me fighting him, fighting light, fighting dawn
And the waves came and stole him and took him to war

He wrote, I'm broke
Please send for me
But I am broken too and spoken for
Do not tempt me

Forgive me Hera, I cannot stay
He cut out my tongue, there is nothing to save
Love me oh Lord, he threw me away
He laughed at my sins, in his arms I must stay

We write, that’s all right
I miss his smell
We speak, when spoken to
And that suits us well
That suits us well
That suits me well
 

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Album - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
024
Darkness Descends
You’re holding bits of styrofoam
with your face painted on to your friends
You listen to them whine and moan
about everything you can’t understand

Can I just say, I don’t fear the light
But darkness descends once more into my life

And suddenly we’re all alone in silence
so I take a step away
I look up to the falling snow
as it makes its home upon my face
Well I wouldn’t want to ruin
something I couldn’t save
The gap will keep us safe
The gap will keep us safe

Step away, get me when I’m down

And suddenly I’m five years old
and I’m just so cold I want to cry
I haul up on my gentlemen
who have always been there in hard times
They’re just not like that man of mine
who visits me from time to time

My love, I treasure you

I hear that summer’s coming back
Oh I stretch out my back and travel along
The winter though it darkens me
It is pure and clean and all I want
I’ll apologise to the ones I love
For leaving them when the sun comes up

Too bright for me, darkness descends

Oh well I’m not well again
and once more darkness it descends
The ground is falling under me
and I can't find the means to leave

Convinced that I am going mad
Oh I bury my head into his hands
So sure that I am losing faith
Oh I clear a space in his father's land

You deal with god far too young
Before you know it your life has run away
 

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Album - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
023
I Speak Because I Can
My husband left me last night
Left me a poor and lonely wife
I cooked the meals and he got the life
Now I’m just old for the rest of my time
For he, oh he, oh my

I speak because I can
to anyone I trust enough to listen
And you speak because you can
to anyone who’ll hear what you say
I swear it was not my choice
I used to be so kind

Never rode my bike down to the sea
Never finished that letter I was writing
Never got up and said anything
Worthy, for he, for my

Graceful sleeper
You midnight dreamer
I’m floored by your sound
I’m floored by your sound

I swear it was not my choice
To reach out for someone wise
I used to be so kind
I used to be so kind

In the breaking of the morning
we’ll be dancing on my soft lawn
When you’re shaking out the anger
that stops you from taking my call
When you’re running up the highway
singing, “I’m the king the king of you all”
When you look back to where it started
I’ll be there waving you on

Never rode my bike down to the sea
Never quite figured out what I believe
Never got up and said anything
Worthy, for he, for my
 

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Album - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
022
Nature of Dust
It’s the nature of dust, that it’s all about us
It’s all about me and it’s all about love
And that’s a dangerous mix, if you don’t get it right
and it’ll come and get you in the dead of the night

Oh it’s a dangerous mix, if you don’t get it right
And it’ll come and get you in the dead of the night
And when they leave, and they do
Oh it’s bad, oh it’s bad

It’s the nature of dust that it’s all about us
It’s all about me and it’s all about love
And that’s a dangerous mix, if you don’t get it right
and it’ll come and get you in the dead of the night

Oh it’s a dangerous mix, if you don’t get it right
And it’ll come and get you, and take your life
And when they leave, oh and they do
Oh it’s bad, oh it’s bad
Oh it’s bad
 

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Bonus - I Speak Because I Can 2010/03    > 
-
021
Is A Hope / Drinking Alone*
I’ve been thinking on my wandering
On the way home from your house
That I love you and why I do
And if there’ll ever be someone else

You’re young and you’re stable
Stand up to your labour
You’re young and you’re able
But you need you a saviour
Oh you need you a saviour

Young believers
Come and see her
She has pushed him to the ground
Though with one hand he could break her
With one hand split her in two

But the reason that we love him
Is a hope he don’t want to
Is a hope he don’t want to

And can you find for me a higher thing?
So I can love he who will not fight for me
Cause I do not believe
Believe that I love he
So fight for me, think and feel for me

No I do not believe but believe, that I love you
But believe that I love you

And when you’re drinking alone
No it’s bad for my soul
Took him back to a year ago
Throwing stones at my window

Ask me demon
To hear you moaning on
Yes I heard the songs
Like bullets to me
Put a calm in me
Knowing it was he
Who was fucking crazy

You’re young and you’re stable
Stand up to your labour
 

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Unreleased 2010/03
020
I'm A Fly
I’m a fly, I’ll die tomorrow
So give me all you’ve got
I so believe, I so believe
I’m a fly, I’ll die tomorrow
So give me all you’ve got

And out here in this foreign place
I have let you down
I’ve fallen for a foreign face
And I’ve fallen to the ground

I’ve gone in blinding, scorching sun
And fallen to my knees
And I’ve forgotten what I believed
And I so believe, I so believe
I so believe in the good in all of us
 

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B-side - Cross Your Fingers single 2008/06
019
Rebecca
Rebecca, Rebecca
Release that sweet rose
It poses no threat to your eyes

Rebecca, Rebecca
You’ve let yourself go
Rebecca, forgiven by I

Snake eyes will dawn
like a mist on a dawn
Doomed to haunt till again we are born
Rebecca, forgiven by me

Striking the earth
for it gave her no spawn
And therein she is feared
By the lovers of our lord

Forgive her, Rebecca
Born sweetly into sin
Bleached her sight forevermore

Rebecca, Rebecca
Crawled into her skin
And there she will stay forevermore
Forevermore

Rebecca, Rebecca
Pulled out of a needle's eye
Pulled out from death back into life

A shameful way for a soul to die
Rebecca, I’m right by your side
 

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Unreleased 2008/05    > 
-
018
Ghosts
He walked down a busy street
Staring solely at his feet
Clutching pictures of past lovers at his side
Stood at the table where she sat
And removed his hat
In respect of her presence
Presents her with the pictures and says
"These are just ghosts that broke my heart before I met you.
These are just ghosts that broke my heart before I met you"

Opened up his little heart
Unlocked the lock that kept it dark
And read a written warning
Saying, "I'm still mourning
Over ghosts, over ghosts, over ghosts
Over ghosts that broke my heart before I met you"

Lover, please do not
Fall to your knees, it's not
Like I believe in everlasting love

He went crazy at nineteen
Said he'd lost all his self esteem
And couldn't understand why he was crying, crying
He would stare at empty chairs
Think of the ghosts that once sat there
The ghosts who broke his heart
Oh the ghosts that broke my heart
The ghosts that broke his heart
Oh the ghosts that broke my heart
The ghosts, the ghosts, the ghosts
the ghosts, the ghosts, the ghosts
The ghosts that broke my heart before I met you

Lover, please do not
Fall to your knees, it's not
Like I believe in everlasting love

He says: "I'm so lost, not at all well"
After it was done, when there was nothing left to be
Well it turned out I'd been following him
and he'd been following me
After it was done, after it was over
We were just two lovers crying on each others shoulder

And I say: "Lover, please do not
Fall to your knees, it's not
Like I believe in everlasting love"

Lover, please do not
Fall to your knees, it's not
Like I believe in everlasting love
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
017
Old Stone
He chased me through the rain
"Honey, I'm going your way"
I don't think so
You can chase me through the rain
And scream my name, a childish game
But I love to be young

And honey I was never gonna change
And honey you are never gonna change
But you love, don't you love it that way

Old stone
Ten thousand years and you're still on your own
Don't you love
Don't you love me that way

And if you swear that you're alright
I'm not gonna try and change your mind
Cause the same night I dream that I lose you, I'll fall in love
Oh honey don't let me walk away from this
If I'm trying to fuck up my own life
Then until I figure out why
I think it's best you keep your distance
Lest I fall in love

Old stone
Ten thousands years and you're still on your own
Don't you love
Don't you love me that way

He chased me through the rain
"Honey I'm going your way"
I don't think so
You can chase me through the rain
And scream my name, a childish game
But I love to be young
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
016
Tap at my Window
He taps at my window
Willing that I let him in
I don't think I will though
My heart's taken, I won't tell him again
Maybe I'll write him a story
And maybe I'll fall asleep in his arms
Maybe I'll wake up lonely and fallen away again

And until you calm me down
I'll Race around this town
Trying to find
Oh, an emotion you cannot deny
I will not have him treat me this way

And Mother, I blame you
With every inch of the being you gave
For I have become you
And I know every part of the game

And Father, I love you
But how can you watch as I push her away?
I cannot forgive you
For bringing me up this way

Maybe I'll write them a story
And maybe I'll fall asleep in his arms
Maybe I'll wake up lonely and fallen away again

And until you calm me down
I'll race around this town
Until you calm me down
I'll race around this town
Trying to find
Oh, an emotion you cannot deny
I will not have them treat me this way

So tap at my window
Maybe I might let you in
I don't think I will though
My heart's taken, I won't tell you again
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
015
Failure
He used to be a singer in a rock and roll band
He would write the songs and I'd tremble at his hand
But oh, la la
He lost poetic ethic and his songs were pathetic
And he's a failure now

And he used to be the life and soul of everyone around
You'd never catch him looking up and never see him down
But oh, la la
He couldn't raise a smile no, not for a while
And he's a failure now

Don't cry child
You've got so much more to live for
Don't cry child
You've got something I would die for

And if it comes to the rain
Just be glad you'll smile again
Cause so many don't
And so many go unnamed

People push right past me shouting their exclaims
A preacher pushes me aside and asks to wash my sins
I said no, la la
If he made me in his image, then he's a failure too

And I used to need a couple people keep my head down
Now I need a whole lot more to keep me on the ground
But oh, la la
I gave up something and I gave it up for nothing
And I'm a failure now

Don't cry child
You've got so much more to live for
Don't cry child
You've got something I would die for

And if it comes to the rain
Just be glad you'll smile again
Cause so many don't
And so many go unnamed
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
014
You're No God
Your mum thinks that you're sad
and that you're living alone
And your friends think if you're sad
you should call them more
But the truth is that
you never needed someone to comfort you
Oh, you've never needed someone to comfort you

But you're no god
You're no god
And you will never leave this place
And you will always feel alone
And you will never feel quite clean
in this new skin that you have grown
Until your old and broken bones
are laid into their resting place

Just like the rest of human race
Until I fall into my place
Just like the rest of human race
Until I'm laid into my final resting place
Just like the rest of human race
Who've done it without complaining all the way

But you're no god
You're no god
As long as you promise that you will never leave
I need only worry about you and me

And we will never leave this place
And we need never feel alone
And we will learn to feel quite clean
in this new skin that we have grown
Because our young and healthy bones
would never lead us astray

We will learn to feel quite clean
in this new skin that we have
We will learn to feel quite clean
in this new skin that we have
We will learn to feel quite clean
in this new skin that we have grown
Because our young and healthy bones
would never lead us astray
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
013
Cross Your Fingers
Look down on the body that you have grown
Four mountains stand around you
They're not your own
And light squares and bodies are all you see
Since you broke down
Since I broke down
Since we broke down

Oh I jump into your grave and die
And on my word you'll give up your whole life for me
And you'll be reborn, bigger and stronger
and less alive
I... I...

Cross your fingers, hold your toes
We're all gonna die when the building blows
Cross your fingers, hold your toes
We're all gonna die when the building blows
And the house that you were born in
is crumbling at the corner
Sagging skin and feet of crows, feet of crows

Oh you'll jump into your grave and die
And on my word you'll give up your whole life for me
And you'll be reborn, bigber and stronger
and less alive
I... I...
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
012
Crawled Out of the Sea (Interlude)
Oh you crawled out of the sea
Straight into my arms
Straight into my arms

Oh you crawled out of the sea
Straight into my arms
Straight into my arms

Oh you crawled out of the sea
Straight into my arms
Straight into my arms

Oh you crawled out of the sea
Straight into my arms
Straight into my arms
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
011
My Manic and I
If he wants to die in a lake in Geneva
The mountains can cover the shape of his nose
If he wants to die where nobody can see him
But the beauty of his death will carry on so
I don't believe him

He greets me with kisses when good days deceive him
And sometimes we're scorned and sometimes I believe him
And sometimes I'm convinced my friends think I'm crazy
Get scared and call him but he's usually hazy

At one in the morning, the day is not ended
By two he is scared that sleep is no friend
And by four he will drink but he cannot feel it
Sleep will not come because sleep does not will it
And I don't believe him
Morning is mocking me

I wander the streets, avoiding them eats
Till the ring on my finger slips to the ground
A gift to the gutter, a gift to the city
The veins of which have broken me down
And I don't believe him
Morning is mocking me

Oh the gods that he believes
Never fail to amaze me
He believes in the love of his god of all things
But I find him wrapped up in all manner of sins
The drugs that deceive him and the girls that believe him

I can't control you
I don't know you well
These are the reasons I think that you're ill
I can't control you
I don't know you well
These are the reasons I think that you're ill

And since last that we parted
Last that i saw him
Down by a river, silent and hardened
Morning was mocking us, blood hit the sky
I was just happy, my manic and I
He couldn't see me; the sun was in his eyes
And birds were singing to calm us down
And birds were singing to calm us down

And I'm sorry young man, I cannot be your friend
I don't believe in a fairytale end
I don't keep my head up all of the time
I find it dull when my heart meets my mind
And I hardly know you, I think I can tell
These are the reasons I think that we're ill
I hardly know you, I think I can tell
These are the reasons I think that I'm ill

And the gods that he believes
Never fail to disappoint me
The gods that he believes
Never fail to disappoint me

My nihilist, my happy man, my manic and I
Have no plans to move on
But birds are singing to calm us down
And birds are singing to calm us down
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
010
Night Terror
I woke up and he was screaming
I'd left him dreaming
I'll roll over and shake him tightly
And whisper, "If they want you
oh they're gonna have to fight me"
Oh, fight me

I woke up on a bench on Shepherd's Bush Green
Oh, a candle at my chest, and a head on his knee
I got up, it was dark
There's no one in the park at this hour
How do I keep finding myself here?
Oh, fight me

If I look back and he is screaming
I'd left him dreaming, a dangerous feat
And I'll run back and shake him tightly
And scream "if they want him
oh they're gonna have to fight me"
Oh, fight me

But if I wake up on a bench on Shepherd's Bush Green
Oh, a candle at my chest, and a head on his knee
I'll roll over and hold him tightly
And scream, "If you want him
oh you're gonna have to fight me"
Oh, fight me

Don't fight me
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
009
The Captain and the Hourglass
You kicked the blow, now you've got to kick the guy
You sat alone under bellowing sky
If I feel God judging me
Well I fell into the water and now I'm free

My friends they don't really get me
Think I'm the only one
Well I sold my soul to Jesus
And since then I've had no fun
Behind every tree is a cutting machine and a kite fallen from grace
Inside every man is a heart of sand, you can see it in his face

He'll tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away
Another second lost with every fallen grain
He'll tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away
Another second lost with every fallen grain

The wind and I we speak the same but he don't hear so well
If you gonna have to curse him well you're gonna have to yell
The sky and I we've had our fights and I'm coming round to rain
If the rain come out and I don't go out and I'll never have to speak again

I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away
Another second lost with every fallen grain
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away
Another second lost with every fallen grain

The captain's got his boots on and he's heading out the door
Leaving his lady alone thinking: "He don't love me no more"
He's done with all this bullshit, he's going back to war
If heaven is as heaven does then this is hell for sure

And he'll tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away
Another second lost with every fallen grain
And he'll tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away
Another second lost with every fallen grain

You kicked the blow but now you've got to kick the guy
You sat alone under bellowing sky
If I feel God judging me
But I fell into the water and now I'm free
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
008
Shine
I have travelled past your window many times
I find your face too hard to define
I can touch you hollow thing
You plague my mind
I can never go outside
I will never go back to being blind

I have wondered what you're doing
Everyday since last I asked
Are your cheeks hollow?
I don't like your eyes dark
I need shine, I need shine, I need shine
Step away from my light, I need shine

I am honest now
Not a shouter
I am reformed, reborn, and forgiven
And you've been busy
But you've missed me
And I've plagued your mind
You will never go outside
You will never go back to being blind

I need shine, I need shine, I need shine
Step away from my light, I need shine
I need shine, I need shine, I need shine
Step away from my light, I need shine
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
007
Your Only Doll (Dora)
I fell into the street
Poison in my veins
Clamber to my feet
And into the night again
Back to my home
Back to my owner
Who screams at my tardiness
Put his hands to the sky
And says: "What can I do with a girl
If she refuses to be mine?"

In his bed I am queen
Unobtainable me
Sexual being
Human with feelings
The two are not me
The two will not be mine
And what can you do with a girl
If she refuses to be mine?

Put his hand on my shirt
Hand on my face
Head to the wall
When you've broken your only doll
And what will you do with a girl
If she refuses to be alive?

And you've broken your only doll
And what will you do with a girl
If she's refusing to be alive?
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
006
Alas I Cannot Swim
There's a house across the river
But alas I cannot swim
And a garden of such beauty that the flowers seem to grin
There's a house across the river
But alas I cannot swim
I'll live my life regretting that I never jumped in

There's a boy across the river
with short black curly hair
He wants to be my lover and I want to be his peer
There's a boy across the river
But alas I cannot swim
I never will get to put my arms around him

There's a life across the river
that was meant for me
Instead I live my life in constant misery
There's a light across the river but I do not see
Why I should please those who will never be pleased

There is gold across the river but I don't want none
There is gold across the river but I don't want none
Gold is fleeting, gold is fickle, gold is fun
Gold is fleeting, gold is fickle, gold is fun

There is gold across the river but I don't want none
I would rather be dry than held up by a golden gun
Saying work more, earn more, live more, have more fun
Saying work more, earn more, live more, have more fun
Saying work more, earn more, live more, have more fun
 

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Album - Alas I Cannot Swim 2008/02    > 
-
005
Man Sings About Romance
He gets up and plays the fool
The audience don't bring him down, down, down
That's right, you do what you do
While no one else is around

These people are my people, watch how we roll
Don't mess 'em up, they're young, life's only just begun
And for the record we were messed up on our own
He takes the fakes and puts them in their place
And he swiftly moves along
And he's known around these parts
as a breaker of social season hearts
And yeah I've spoke and yeah we get along

God, I could fall for a man that can sing about
love and depression among other things
A man who sings about romance
Woman he hardly knows
And what good does it bring?
This is the woman he chose

I don't get happy people, why do they care?
They can't be happy all the time, they're really just not there
And they're all loved up on some drug and I
hope that it's not love because I like 'em messed up and not really there
And I like 'em roughed up a little bit, fucked up if it can be arranged
As high as a kite and as willing to fight as a man of his age

God, I could fall for a man that can sing about
Love and depression among other things
A man who sings about romance
Woman he hardly knows
And what good does it bring?
This is the life that he chose

A man who sings about romance
A woman he hardly knows, knows, knows
And what good does it bring?
This is the love that he chose

These people are my people, watch how we roll
Don't mess 'em up, they're young, life's only just begun
And for the record we were messed up on our own
He takes the fakes and puts them in their place
And he swiftly moves along
And he's known around these parts
as a breaker of social season hearts
And yeah I've spoke and yeah we get along

God, I could fall for a man that can sing about
Love and depression among other things
A man who sings about romance
Woman he hardly knows
And what good does it bring?
This is the life that he chose
 

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B-side - Ghosts single 2008/01
004
Typical
Again I let jealousy blind me today
My oldest friend and I blew her away
Just a few kind words and all I could say
Was: "I’ve known you what, 10 years, it feels like a day”
And I watched her cry
Torn apart at the hands of a child

And again I used arrogance as something to depend
And condemned all religion to a pitiless end
And a politician’s resonance rang through my mind
Patriotic in one sense, the other just blind

And oh, so many die
Torn apart at the hands of a child
And I’ll keep on going, I’ve got nothing to lose
I gave up morals when I took up you
And it’s boring to hear of another young truth
And what a typically shit thing to do

And I was so shallow to the one man that stuck around
Sunk so low that I nearly drowned
And I screamed of his heart when he wasn’t around
Consoled him recklessly, I knew you were down

And oh, I watched him cry
A broken heart at the hands of a child
And I’ll keep on going, I’ve got nothing to lose
And I gave up morals when I took up you
And it’s boring to hear of another young truth
And what a typically shit thing to do

And I have felt heartbreak too and I know what it feels like
And I have felt heartbreak, now you can leave me alone, right?
And I have felt loneliness and I know what it feels like

But I kept on going, I had nothing to lose
And I gave up morals when I took up booze
And it’s boring to hear of another young truth
And what a typically shit thing to do
 

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EP - My Manic and I 2007/08
003
New Romantic
I know I said I loved you but I'm thinking I was wrong
I'm the first to admit that I'm still pretty young
And I never meant to hurt you when I wrote you ten love songs

That guy that I could never get, oh his girlfriend was pretty fit
And everyone who knew her loves her so
And I made you leave her for me
and now I'm feeling pretty mean
But my mind has fucked me over more times
than any man could ever know

Maybe I should give up, give in
Give up trying to be thin
Give up and turn into my mother
God knows I love her

And I'm sorry to whichever man should meet my sorry state
Watch my sturdy, lonesome gait and beware
I will never love a man cause love and pain go hand in hand
And I can't do it again

So we stayed up late one night to try and get our problems right
But I couldn't get into his head just what was going through my mind
I think he knew where I was going, he put Ryan Adams on
I think he thinks it makes me weak, it only ever makes me strong

I've got this friend and he sounds just like him
And he's the man I'd leave you for, the man that I just adore like you
The same man, he turns to me, he said: "I've got to tell you how I feel
If God could make a perfect girl for me it would be you
And my God told me not to tell her
but how much do you love your fella?"
I don't know more everyday
Not in this new romantic way

I'll always be your first love
You'll always be my first love

But I'm sorry to whichever man should meet my sorry state
Watch my sturdy, lonesome gait and beware
I will never love a man cause love and pain go hand in hand
And I can't do it again
I will never love a man cause I could never hurt a man
Not in this new romantic way
 

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EP - My Manic and I 2007/08    > 
002
She's Changed
The future looks dark but we're on the way up
cause I hear that tomorrow's bright
Can you believe that when we were fifteen
we'd go drinking and stay up all night?
A gift and a curse cause she grew a thirst
and oh what a waste of her life
Dropped out of school cause she's too cool
now sleeps with men of the night

A word of warning goes to you my man
I hope you understand that when she grabs you by the hand
she needs security
Is it hard to comprehend that when she's your friend
she's not nice to see?
Maybe you won't get your heart broken too
Cause she's changed, yeah she's changed
No just joking she's still the same
So "why do you bother?" I ask myself

She was so young and so far gone
and he was your average man
she never liked to stay with one person too long
She never liked to keep a plan
She couldn't keep her concentration
She never had much to say
She found her perfect occupation
If you want her you're gonna have to pay

A word of warning goes to you my man
I hope you understand that when she grabs you by the hand
she needs security
Is it hard to comprehend that when she's your friend
she's not nice to see?
Maybe you won't get your heart broken too
Cause she's changed, yeah she's changed
No just joking she's still the same
So "why do you bother?" I ask myself

Wear your short skirt out tonight
and shout at the chav as he shines a light
You laugh so much cause it makes you different inside
and your heels are different from any other size
Make eyes with the fit one looking at you
Don't let on you've got a boyfriend or two
Then chat some rubbish about new old bands
They're the new Libertines, slightly, such as

A word of warning goes to you my man
I hope you understand that when she grabs you by the hand
she needs security
Is it hard to comprehend that when she's your friend
she's not nice to see?
Maybe you won't get your heart broken too
Cause she's changed, yeah she's changed
No just joking she's still the same
So "why do you bother?" I ask myself
 

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EP - The London Town EP 2007/04
001
London Town
I know, I know she came to save you
But she knocked my drink over too
And I know, I know that she wants you
She looks at you the way that I do
Well if you think that I'm lying
Why would I give up trying so soon?

Where'd you go, where'd you go?
Where'd you leave me of my soul?
Where'd you go?

And how's it now, how's it now
How's it back in London town
where you let me down?

And I know, I know what you've been through
You think I don't care but I really do
And I know, I know how much it hurts you
But you've been clean six years
now what would you do?
Well if you think that I'm lying
Why would I give up trying so soon?

Where'd you go, where'd you go?
Where'd you leave me of my soul?
Where'd you go?

And how's it now, how's it now
How's it back in London town
where you let me down?

And it's all of bad things
I wish I hadn't done
I know you're all about the dancing
But I, I just don't find it fun
Would you care if I cared too?
Would you run from you?

Where'd you go, where'd you go?
Where'd you leave me of my soul?
Where'd you go?

And how's it now, how's it now
How's it back in London town
where you let me down?
 

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EP - The London Town EP 2007/04    > 

* title unconfirmed or subject to change as new/unreleased song.



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